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Thursday, January 11, 2007 at 8:07 PM

long one again.....

my hamster died................................ i dun sound too sad did i?i mean, it died juz like tat...prob old age... but no one believe they died of a natural cause... they ALL think i poisoned it or something or i never feed it... got ok?? *rolls eyes* hahaha....

anywaes, i dun even rmb wat exactly happened recently.... i only know tat i can't wake up in the mornings and i feel damn super xian!!!!!!!! like so listless or something... and it was a drastic change for me in terms of sleeping hrs? it was like 10 hrs during the hols and then suddenly 3-4 hrs.... ok fine, its because i left everything to last min... but still,not enuf sleep...can't get the momentum back also.. last week only went to sch for 1 day for presentation and tut... oh and i'm actuallie quite happy tat junior lee actuallie minorly praised our proj : saying our biz model and our mission statement was gd... :)

oh and last wed janice, eun and me went to eat sakae buffet.. think its been real long since we met up, esp with eunice... kinda miss the days where we would make a point to meet at least once in a week or once every 2 weeks or something... but well, better than nothing right? oh oh and guess wat? janice bought me a deathnote-book!!!!!!!argh!!!! i love it!!! it reallie looks like the one i the movie... juz tat its a smaller version cuz easier to bring around...she keep saying aiya its nothing expensive la, very cheap one.... but its the tot that counts right?some more she noe i like deathnote... aw!!!super touched!!!! i love it to bits!!!

finally went to vivo for the 2nd time with jie... it was so much less crowded compared to b4 xmas... which was like hardly walkable... we actuallie went to raffles city to eat cheese sausage cuz i was reallie craving for it (all tnx to rahayu..), den went to bugis to collect some body shop voucher, den went to PS to collect jie's Mp3, den we headed dow to vivo... omg... i always feel tat even if everywhere was opened 24 hrs, there still won't be enuf time for me and jie to go...its like as though time always pass so fast and we're always running out of time...

had 2 test on mon... sux la.. so tired.... quality mgt think i screwed it up... kaoz.... the Deming's 14 pts i memorise like crazy and it DID NOT come out... fuck! waste so much time on tat... so many things not tested la... waste my time...but management accounting wasn't so bad i guess... cuz i ask nooraini about my answers and she say she also got tat set of ans....hehe.... hope can score well for tat... *cross fingers*. i was so freaking scared la.... i scared i calculate the units wrongly den EVERYTHING will be wrong.... luckily quite ok.. cuz instead of revising during the lunch break we were eating and chatting for 2 hrs...haha..

lastly, guess wat? *drum roll* i finally changed my hp!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to nokia 7390... fine bimbo phone or wat ever u call it but up till this point, i like it! haha... my previous phone is like not even usable la... i talk half way den like cut off like tat. and no msg could come in la... fuck! when i put my sim card to my new phone den 14 msg come in... jia lat ...no wonder the whole afternoon i didnt receive any messages... my parents still didnt noe i bought a phone already... yeah i didnt tell them...cuz my dad dun wanna pay anywae.. he's ALWAYS using this line nowadays : " march u'll be graduating so u'll be going out to work den got money to buy lor!" nowdays everthing is always this bloody line i'm getting... wat i'm angry about is not the fact tat he dun wanna buy it for me but at the fact tat like my whole life is decided and run by him.... i wanna complete my studies asap den go out and work...of course b4 i start my further studies i'll find a job la but he's already assuming tat i'm gonna have to work for like 1-2 yrs den go back to studying.... i cant lor... i will lose all my momentum by then, i just know it. its juz URGH! FRUSTRATING!

and to top it off, i have a mum who thinks tat no bf now=know how to think (wise). wtf?????? she keep talking about tat attachment gal at her work place. say tat she got so many pple after her but she still no bf la, den her guy frens are from ITE so she wan something better la and a whole load of other shit la.... mum, so at wat age do u think i should have a bf??? hmmm....20?too early, 30?concentrate on career, 40?they'll be after ur money,50?tongues will start waging if u date now,60?died of clogged arteries already la! so mum, ur trying to say i should not ever have a bf la? ok fine... if by the time i'm 28 and i still cant produce a "your" perfect nerdy bf, dun u dare to ask me why i dun have one or say stuff like, "my friend has a son who's single...." or "when are u gonna bring a guy back?". my blood will boil so high tat its gonna cause the ice in the north pole to melt and flood the entire earth! kaoz... im like 20 and i only have one bf b4... tats like guai beyond guai already man... can't find anyone else like me already can? and now wat, i can't even date guys?i dun care la.... seriously, i think her actions will have a negative impact on my teachings to my daughter(if i ever have 1) in future.... i may give her all the freedom i never had and thus, resuting in her loss of morale values and discipline... i'm thinking too far off huh? can't help it... this topic with my parents makes my blood boil...

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